Paradoxical Nights

 Strange how nights can invoke outlandish sentiments that are vague but coherent simultaneously. It is a core memory from my teenage. Getting the door of your room shut after tricking your parents into believing that you are in deep slumber by 12. Starting off with your solitude despite knowing that the fantastical hallucination of your subconscious brain will come to a merciless end by your cacophonous alarm as early as 6 a.m. But you still decide to discern the arcane tales penned in the 2 a.m. black with gleaming ink. Letting your earphones give you some company, all this had the power to make me experience nostalgia of something which didn’t even happen till then. The thrill of welcoming what the morning had to unfold and simultaneously having the terror of letting the moments slip in a time loop, reminiscing them in near future. The serenity of the night integrated the adrift parts of my ingenuity that I had lost throughout the day. Whatever is acknowledgeable in the dark goes unnoticed in the dazzling light of morning that makes us hustle with our duties. Trees, who at the mercy of daylight grapple for their survival, exchange wisdom at night. Roads of our life seem so complicated but at the same time we comprehend them to be simple. Indeed, there is light even in darkness. It fills me with tranquility and bliss making me feel complete. Contrary to it, the silence of the sylph was deafening, but in an ironic way that it was blare and expressed way too much, enough to perturb me. The perfect contentment of catching the horizon and the weariness of measuring the infinite with your thoughts can actually coexist not just as a mere sensation but can brim your consciousness. And the sudden realization that such infinite permutations of extreme paradoxes nurture not just in nature but in one’s own self also. Interpreting paradoxes is a never-ending thinking loop that requires the highest level of consciousness. We ourselves are a paradox.

                                                                                                          ~ Suditi Chaurasiya